Hurrah for... the Day Job?
by Hannah Roveto
"It's fine for writing teachers to talk in self-help jargon about how their lives require 'balance' and 'shifting gears' between teaching and writing, but below that civil language lurks the uncomfortable fact that the creation of literature requires a degree of monomania...It's hard throw your whole self into something when that self has another job." -- David Gessner, "Those Who Write, Teach," The New York Times Magazine, September 21, 2008
Mon-o-ma-ni-a: an excessive interest in or enthusiasm for some one thing. (Definition two: a mental disorder characterized by irrational preoccupation with one subject.)
How many of you are independently wealthy? How many of you have no families or friends, no homes save the hotel with staff who serve up each meal and deliver your laundry neatly folded? If only we could make our entire living by writing. How simple and glorious life would become. Hallie Ephron once announced in a class I took with her that she'd recently realized her entire income came from the literary life, at last. She taught, wrote bylined articles, wrote her wonderful mysteries. No more "other job." Those of us around the table sighed happily on her behalf and dreamed the whole way home of reaching that goal.
Into this comes Mr. Gessner's article in the New York Times, asking whether "an artist can survive success in the academy." I saved his article for dead last this week, hesitant to read it. Turned out, for good reason. He quotes Mike Magnuson as saying, "What teaching has done for me is make me not want to read anything, written by anybody, for the rest of my life." Holy cow. Now what am I supposed to do when I grow up?
I thought of my own day job in public relations. I can't count the moments when I grind my teeth against the compulsion to get back to my fiction. At least once a week I finish my PR checklist and pull up my work-in-progress and the phone rings and I gaze longingly at the screen before admitting defeat, because it will be a good hour before I can attend to it. Of course, at that time the kids will come home, and crazy me pulls up the WIP again as though that will make them instantly dive into homework without a fuss or cross word to each other. (The faint laughter you hear from my corner of the world at that point is, well, monomaniacal...)
Gessner's article made me think of my mother, who is an artist, who went back to school when I was young to get her master's degree in library science. She chose a job that had nothing to do with her art, on purpose. The work was satisfying, concrete and produced a paycheck. Most important, she would say, was the fact that she literally left her job behind her when she'd put in her time and could focus on her weaving or jewelry with every ounce of her creative soul intact.
Gessner also is making me rethink my day job to some degree. Have I given up my glowing vision of a fully writerly life, whatever that may be? Not a chance. However, I appreciate what I do have a little more, thanks to him. I am paid to write, first and foremost, and to think strategically and creatively in a way that does not fill my head with fiction other than my own or what I choose to read. Between us, I even love the rush when a television producer or newspaper editor agrees to interview my client.
Maybe the writerly life doesn't have to be fiction 24/7. Maybe there are day jobs that make writing possible on a financial level, and help keep it fresh on the artistic level. The answers, therefore, have to come from proportion and determination when it comes to the writing itself. Maybe someday a little less PR, a little more fiction could be a personal ideal in my particular case; who knows? After all, if we're really being honest, everything interferes with writing at one point or another. Showers and meals, everything and everyone. Which may be bad news for our WIPs, but it's not bad news for us. We are writers. We are monomaniacal. Which is what it takes to get the job done.
10 comments:
Nice post. I think everything interferes with writing at one point or another b/c unlike other jobs, we're writing somehow 24/7, whether we're actually putting pen to paper or washing the dishes and contemplating. It's there, it's us, first & foremost.
Absolutely. I know I blogged once about realizing I needed to get rid of a character as I was pulling laundry out of the dryer. It's there all the time, even in the shower (if we can ever get to it!)
Hannah
Working for yourself helps you carve out fiction-writing time from an otherwise busy workday, although there's always the fear of turning down a project opportunity and facing a dry pipeline come January. There's also something to be said for doing a different kind of writing as your day job - maybe you have found this as well, but my business writing has helped sharpen and strengthen my fiction writing skills in many surprising ways: First, by helping me spot and eliminate wordy or overly complex sentences; second, by helping me get to the point more quickly; and, most surprisingly of all, helping me uncover and address my characters' needs and aspirations the same way I would for a customer. So (speaking of getting to the point) I try to look at *all* my writing as benefiting my WIP in one way or another. It helps me feel less anxious about what I'm not doing from a purely creative standpoint.
You're right, Leslie, in that it all seems to come together somehow in the end. The business writing gives us needed distance, and come January, heck, that's when I do some of my best work! Also, am hoping Singular Existence is doing well in the wake of your participation in the Seeking Happily Ever After documentary! Not that one should ever ask an author how things are going...
Hannah
Hee...someone's been reading my blog again! All is going well; thanks for asking (and so diplomatically). And, Lynne, if you're reading this...I'm looking forward to your upcoming Grub seminar. I learned the hard way to register early.
Leslie,
I am so glad you'll be joining me for the workshop on novel beginnings. I've got lots planned and can't wait. And it will be so nice to catch up.
Lynne
Having a job has freed me from financial worries, so that's helped my writing. And for some strange reason, having less time to write has also helped my writing. Set loose upon a day with nothing to do, I find all kinds of ways to fritter away the hours before settling down at the computer. But tell me I can't write because I have to be at work from 7 to 6, and I tear across that keyboard!
I just do better under pressure. That's the sad truth. I'd love to be so self-motivated that I could fill my days with productive research and writing. Oh well.
But I, too, subscribe to the notion that I'm writing all the time (except when work is crazed!). Boring meeting? Not for me. I just discovered a great new plot twist!
I absolutely agree with all of you; having a day job does take the edge off the financial stress. Like a lot of you, I absolutely devote my weekends to writing, writing, writing because I feel I have to. And, also like you, I do write all the time in my head. Even when I'm teaching, I find myself scribbling down that "example" I gave my students for a simile-- thinking-- I can rework that and use it later. Day jobs are a blessing to be sure.
Another thought. Day job is a bad phrase, as though that is the one with priority as it generally does have to be worked around and is done by day. How about the Paid Job -- teaching writing, or working at the library, or whatever it may be -- and the Writing Job, instead?
Hannah
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